A lie

I have started loving this lie..
If not for it would i die..
Whiling life flawlessly..
portraying myself courageously..
A life lived ignorantly..
Yet behaving discreetly..
Still the life has to move on..
But hard to believe all is gone..
Solitude pulls apart my mask..
Tears streaming down unmask..
My pain & feelings for him..
making my life grim..
For i realised my life..
without him is a grief..